Thursday, September 25, 2008

A Jumble of Thoughts

Today was a difficult one. Today I had outpatient surgery to have the med port placement in preparation for chemotherapy. I'm not gonna hurts! I'm in A LOT of pain!

The procedure itself went more smoothly than what I anticipated. My breast surgeon is the one who did the surgery. She is such a kind, compassionate, caring doctor and for that, I am very grateful.

Last night didn't go so well for me, to be honest. I was anxious, afraid, crying and feeling very physically uncomfortable from the saline injections that were put into my chest expanders on Tuesday by my plastic surgeon.

The realization about how this med port puts me one step closer to chemotherapy hit me full force last night.

This is a tough road to walk, but I know God is with me every step of the way...


  1. I know too many women who have recently been told they have breast cancer. For all women we must stand together. God bless you in your recovery.

  2. (((((Michelle)))))

    I was praying for you today...knowing you were having that surgery.

    We will continue praying for less pain...less anxiety and fear. Lean on Jesus and your friends. We're all here for you.


  3. Now that I read Jan's comments I will add the *less anxiety* to my prayer list also for you.......we are all praying ....REALLY praying......It is a tough road and I surely do not understand why things like this happen, lots of unanswered questions, but all I DO know is that God hears and answers prayers. Lets pray for the doctors also, that every one of them will have God's hands guide theirs.....

    love you to pieces!!!!

  4. Michelle - I just want to say that I am sorry you're in pain. There are no words of comfort. Sometimes to be honest, I get tired of people trying to make me feel better. (call me cynical). Know that I am praying for you often. Tonight I pray that your pain goes away quickly!!

    Love to you,

  5. It breaks my heart to hear how much pain you are in, Michelle. You are going down a road that I have never traveled and I am so sorry you have to walk that path. I pray the Lord our God will carry you as you go on this most difficult journey.

  6. Michelle, I'm so very sorry for the terrible pain you are in. I forgot that you would have added uncomfortableness with the saline injections, and pressure, on top of the surgery. I am praying right now for comfort for you. I'm adding less anxiety to my personal list too for you. I think of you every time I look at the fabric I'm using for the project I'm making.

    I wish I had words of comfort and peace to give you. The verse that came to my mind is "I will keep you in perfect peace, him who's mind is stayed on me, because he trusts in me." Isaiah 26:3

    I will continue to pray for you all day. Hugs, Kathi

  7. OH Michelle! Much love, hugs and prayers for you!!! You are doing great, you really are! I hope your pain subsides soon!

  8. Hi Michelle,
    Sending prayers, love, and hugs your way!
    Hope today is a better day for you!
    Blessins', Lib

  9. Good Morning Michelle, You Know I can feel your Pain! I am walking through this with you, Praying for the anxiety to stop and the pain to lessen,I put into my head each step I took was that much closer to being Healed! Glad to hear Terss is feeling better, I am sure her stomach pains are just from all the upset in her life! Focus on the healing and getting better for your family, they need you! BIG HUGS!! Diana :o)

  10. Michelle,

    I am so sorry that you are in pain. This must be so hard for you. I am praying for you. I pray that God will give you strength and take away the pain and take away your anxiety and fears. Just curl up in His lap and let Him hold you and take care of you.

    Bless you sweetie,


  11. Michelle...

    You are so brave, is hard right now...but keep your mind focused on the end WILL get through this..and you WILL be okay...your faith in God will see you through this..and when you need to lean just a bit...lean on me...

    sending positive thoughts your way......

    love, Angie

  12. Sweet Michelle,
    I am soo sorry the port has given you so much pain, anxiety and fear. How horrible for you. I suffer anxiety on a daily basis and take medications to keep it under control. I pray the pain will ease quickly and the port become a blessing during your treatment. I cannot even imagine. I am also so sorry for the pain accompaning your saline injections. UGG... Isn't it nice that our normal breasts, grow gradually?:) You probably cannot even sleep comfortably or roll over. Hopefully your new and improved ones will make up for all the discomfort:) I guess I am not too good tonight at trying to get a smile to come.
    Just know You and your family are in my prayers.
    With much concern, Beth

  13. Michelle,

    Thinking about you, praying for you, smiling because you are such a special (blog) friend and you have touched my life in ways I cannot explain....and God is the author of it all!!!

    Love you sweet lady & holding you close to my heart in prayer.

    Debbie Kay

  14. Oh Michelle..I still don't have a port and I think I'm going to make it without one..Do they NEED you to have one..or is it for convenience..
    I'm praying for you dear!!


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