I cried last night. Lots of tears. It was 1 AM and the stress of everything that's been going on hit me full force right in the face. I don't think it's a bad thing to cry. I think tears relieve stress. I think it's perfectly fine to be honest and pour all of your feelings out before the Lord. So I did. I don't always feel very strong; I'm just trying my very best to stay positive and make it through these awful circumstances of life. I'm not mad at God. I'm not questioning WHY all this stuff is happening. No, I don't understand it and I don't like it one bit. But I always want to try to go to God with everything.
"Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about what happens to you." I Peter 5:7
You see, God intimately KNOWS each one of our hearts...our deepest concerns...all of our worries and cares. God knows I want to keep my girls in the same school district. God knows it's important to my Tess to remain going to that school because she just made captain of the cheerleading squad. In her 12 year old world, THAT is big stuff to her ~ so it's important to me, too...I respect that and don't think it's silly or have the attitude, 'oh, she'll get over it'.
God knows exactly where a new house needs to be located. God knows how many bedrooms we need. God knows Bobby & I can't physically lift anything right now to pack up a house and move. God knows what day we have to be out of this house. God knows our finances, right down to the penny.
BUT I HAVE CONFIDENCE THAT NOT ONLY DOES GOD KNOW...HE CARES...AND HE'LL TAKE CARE OF EVERY LITTLE DETAIL in the situation! It's MY job to trust him and rest. Rest in knowing that HE WILL work on our behalf!
"And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them." Romans 8:28
"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble." Psalm 46:1